When will pleasure crash with regret? ~Terri Guillemets
2014-01-04
Stressed, depressed but well dressed.
I ask myself, when will this pleasure crash and be filled with regret? When will time show me where to go? This apathetic feeling is still there and the light inside me seem to be fading away. My eyes are wide open, but I can't seem to find anything that can save me right now.
Blurry and dark sunglasses. I can hear laughter behind closed doors and walls that feels like paper. Dress up. Forget the sober and unhappy feeling. Throw out all the feelings. Tonight it is you and me. I will dance. I will sing. I will love life.
But the truth is. I want to give up. I want to give up so so so badly, but I know I need to stay. I need more time.
I have more tears that need to come out. More words that need to be said. More feelings that need to come out. I'm not done yet. Or am I? Idk really. I can't do this much longer. My thoughts is killing me,
But it has to be a sign. The winter didn't come this year. The snow. The cold. The ice on the water. I told you how I wanted to do, but I couldn't. Now that I have a plan I must believe it was a sign. Or was it?
